| Friday, May 30th, 2003 |
| 1:50 am |
I love becky........I still love becky.........I always have .....im tired.......my mind seems slow lately.........I think im fat.......I dont love myself that much anymore.......I feel un-sexy.......times are changing.......my neck itches......I want to marry becks........I bought a ring.........I like to go to work.......my feet feel heavy..........I just passed gas........I love the world.......I feel pain in my heart.......I feel love in my mind.....my car is broken......my wounds are healing.......I dont know who I am.......I define myself by my other half.......I define who I want to be by my love......I want to marry becks.....my life feels almost completely sublime......I wish I could talk to old friends.....im tired......im really tired.....I just want to move the 10 feet to lay by my girl wrap my arms around her and go to sleep.....it always makes these worries disappear.....I think I will........now |
| Monday, February 17th, 2003 |
| 10:44 am |
Okay its been a really long damn time since ive publicly updated. But to be honest im just not that self important to believe that my life should be kept like some strange secret. I dont really care if anyone knows my inner thoughts or my deepest darkest secrets. Ive moved out with becky to a really nice place on West Utica and Ryan road. Ive basically been having the time of my life for the past 3 months that we have been living here. Moving out with someone is like the ultimate test of a relationship and we are pasing with flying colors....as expected. Beckys is my total babe and everything I really ever wanted in a woman. She truly is my better half. I plan to someday soon ask her to marry me......she truly is the one that I want to spend my life with. So to be honest thats my darkest secrets in a nutshell. Other than that I occasionaly look at porn...thats pretty much it ---"All the wonder that I want, I found in her" -Finger Eleven |
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| Wednesday, September 25th, 2002 |
| 4:02 pm |
the stories are triue.....I am 21....its a little bit odd.....a little bit crazy....a little bit shocking. I had a good time on my birthday and got a really kick ass new golf bag. I spent the many deays leading up to and after with my favorite person in the world....my Becks. She is the most wonderful thing in the world....and I find myself most times having a hard time believing im this happy. We talk....we laugh...we joke...our life together is just completely perfect and satisfying. I think about her every second of the day....and miss her every second we are apart. She makes my terrible days perfect...and my perfect days even better. Her smile is infectious and contagious...and her laugh could make anyone feel happy. I am in love....and she is the one I want to be with forever |
| Tuesday, September 10th, 2002 |
| 8:25 am |
NEW ROOT
A bit of a Music epiphany. Im listening to the new Taprrot Cd. But its not out yet you say......awww ive had it for 2 weeks. A friend is a friend of the band and got me a copy. In there second single "Dreams" they streamline dub in about 4 seconds from Again and again. Its one of the most brilliant musical moves and it fits so damn well.....what a great CD Current Music: Taproot - Dreams |
| Sunday, September 8th, 2002 |
| 11:13 am |
Ok....here is the low-down. Me and Becks = perfection. Ive never in my life been this happy....and ive been spending pretty much all of my time with her. We have so much fun.....and do so many cool things. Im sad to see our first summer come to an end. But I must admit it was the best summer ever. I cant even begin to list how many cool things we have done tihs summer. So many great memories and incredible times we have had. I cherish them all and remember them all. Becks, you really make me the most happiest guy in the world. I love you more than life itself. Your sweeter than anyone ive ever met...and more beautiful than anything I could ever imagine. Thanks for the best seven months of my life....and to the million more that will follow.....I love you |
| Saturday, July 20th, 2002 |
| 3:20 am |
WOW....well life has been quite the incredible lately. Got another raise.....Becky is just beyond great....and right now I feel totally at peace with myself and where I am. I dont know what to write....I feel lame writing all about becky every day....but she is in my every thought....my every feeling....my live revlolves around her....I miss her so much right now just writing this babble |
| Thursday, July 4th, 2002 |
| 3:36 am |
WOW...I attended the Finger Eleven concert in Sarnia. It was unreal. Ive never heard them sound so incredible. They played 3 new songs...including Slow Chemical. If the new album is 4/8's as good as the new songs we are all in for a great treat. Scott was the most impressive of the bunch. He really has made HUGE strides in his vocals and sounded great. James was sporting a new finely cut mohawk....and damn did he sound good. Slow Chemical was incredible....they pulled it off and then some. I found myself getting goosebumps....thats how impressed I was. They were so energetic and powerful....James is by far the most violent gutiarist ive ever seen. He jumps and bangs around the stage and still plays flawlessly. The minute it was over Becky asked if we could get tickets to edgefest. It was just that GOOD. Best concert ive ever been to....a memory I wont soon forget |
| Thursday, June 27th, 2002 |
| 5:17 am |
February 2, 2002. It was a strangely mild day for february and the sun was out in full force. After a crappy boring overnight I ventured into the K-Mart next door to buy food. I have bought food many times before, but this was unlike the many times before. This time I was cooking for two people. I remember painful hours I took to choose the food.....the time I spent making sure it was of the highest quality and the best flavor. I also remember strolling around k-mart in my half asleep state with a huge smile on my face. I had many things to do that day....sleep was not in the forecast. I got home and grated fresh parmasean cheese, pre-made an italina salad, and marinated my chicken in fresh garlic risoto mixture. All of this with the same glowing smile on my face. After the most horrible 3 hours of anxiety sleep in my life.....I awoke and began to dress. As my shoes were being assembled upon my feet....she walked in with the same smile that I had. The smile reeked of nervousness. But behind that was a genuine happiness....an anticipation of something special....something at least I had never felt before. We talked for hours....I dont remember a word that was said. We ate and yet I cannot remember the taste of the food. But I can remember like it was just minutes ago the smile upon both of our faces. I write this for one simple reason. I just realized that February 2, 2002 was the day that I started smiling. It has not gone away since Current Mood:  touchedCurrent Music: 12 Stones - Broken |
| Wednesday, June 19th, 2002 |
| 2:30 am |
After my girlfriend created a AIM sn named Jimbo627's Journal and left strange messages coaxing me to update...I will. I mean thts a lot of trouble to go through. Anyways...what am I up to lately? Not a WHOLE lot....Working more over the summer....hanging out with my beautiful girlfriend...and basically doin some relaxing. Only 3 more months until I turn the big 21....Im pretty excited...I usually hate birthdays....but I think this one may be different.....I kinda think ill be having a lot of fun. I really feel blessed that me and Becky are going so good. We really connect and make each other happy. I love spending my time with her....I love joking around with her...I love being close to her. We are always doin one of those 3. Its hard to try to say what I want to say when talking about her....there just arent many words to describe my happiness. Maybe just saying im more happy now then ever will suffice. |
| Wednesday, June 5th, 2002 |
| 1:10 am |
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| Sunday, May 19th, 2002 |
| 10:22 pm |
I once was lost but now I am found
So....I was having a pretty shitty month.....acting like an ass....in this constant horrible mood...Im not sure what it was. It could of been a nagging cold that was hanging around. I just felt like crap....didnt wanna do anything. I am starting to feel a lot better....some tihngs are coming around. I was really starting to annoy and worry my becks.....but I hope that everything is back to the normal now....I still have my bad days....but realizing what I have always gets me through them. In other news....I ordered my new computer from Dell this week. It should be getting here by may 25th.....here is what it has Pentium? 4 Processor at 1.7 GHz Memory: 128MB DDR SDRAM Keyboard: Dell ? Quietkey ? Keyboard Monitors: Video Ready w/o Monitor Video Cards: 64MB NVIDIA GeForce2 MX 4X AGP Graphics Card with TV-Out Hard Drive: 40GB Ultra ATA/100 Hard Drive Floppy Drive: 3.5 in Floppy Drive Operating System: Microsoft? Windows? XP Home Edition Mouse: MS IntelliMouse? Network Card: 10/100 PCI Fast Ethernet NIC Modem: 56K PCI Data Fax Modem for Windows CD or DVD Drive: 24x/10x/40x CD-RW Drive with Roxio's Easy CD Creator? Im very excited about it arriving.....Summer CD will hit shelves (ok my shelf) June 2nd. Otherwise not too much is going on in my life....watching my Red Wings...hanging out with my favorite girl in the whole world. Currently going to sleep. |
| Wednesday, May 1st, 2002 |
| 4:44 am |
Slowin it down
The past couple of weeks have been crazy busy.....school and work have bogged down my mind for the past month. But thursday it will all come to a quick close....and I am very glad it does. Finally got out and did some golfing yesterday....was a lot of fun. Lil too windy for my liking but I was roundly impressed with beckys 8 iron. Its too funny....she woud hit a couple bad shots and then just cream the 8 iron.....funny My mind is tiring....I can feel the strain of life grasping its hold around my neck. There was a time in my life when I realized who Iwas, there was a time in my life when I realized what I wanted, a time in my life when I found it, and now all sorts of "real" life issues are presenting themselves. I am eager to tackle them, but I cannot help but be afraid that I will let people down. Its from this fear that I run.....I was sick of catering my actions to please others all the time....so simply put..I have stopped doin that....im doing what I want....doing what makes me happier....and doing what makes me feel complete. I feel complete when she is around.....we fit like puzzle pieces.....we understand each other....we want the same things....we have a TON of fun....we can talk about ANYTHING.....my deepest darkest secrets even feel safe when I tell her....things I would NEVER talk about seem easy with her....its just cool....no crap....no games....no odd behaviors....or craziness....its just right.....thnaks becks for being everything Ive wanted |
| Wednesday, April 24th, 2002 |
| 2:21 am |
8 Reasons why the Vancouver Canucks are a joke
8 - The Sedin twins. Does it get any gayer than this? Drafted with each other # 2 and 3 overall. Play on the same line with each other and now both of them not realizing there potential together. Way to save the franchise Mr. Burke. 7 The strap.....Dan Cloutier. A Chris Osgood clone....and getting closer with every shot from center ice. Has a temper as short as Mike Tyson and is not afraid to take on entire teams. Too bad his goaltending cannot speak for itself. 6- Brian Burke GM. Runs his giant mouth every year claiming that after his teams 2-0-0-0 start that they are destined to win the Stanley Cup. But lets not forget fantastic trades and free agent pick ups such as.....Mark Messier...Trevor Linden (for a first round pick) and beautiful draft picks like....The Sedin Twins...Pauls Brother....among others. This man always has an excuse and a bitch and moan attitude. Also, he usually has a team struggling to make the playoffs. 5- Donald Brashear. OK OK OK I know he is gone, but I just have to put him in here. The consumate asshole and race card player. Donald was exactly what vancouver needed to stay out of the win and class column. ::::applause to Marty McSorley::::: 4- Jan Hlavac - what a disaster on skates. Pretty nice moves but is always battling a stiff kneck from watching opposing forwards skate by him on the way towards the goal. Pavel Bure with-out the offense....thats confusing isnt it? 3 The History - Terrible jerseys.....no cups...bad fans....horrible arena....un-impressive new arena. Thank god the town is beautiful, otherwise Vancouver would be bare 2- Marc Crawford - what an ass. How do you get fired from Colorado? What kind of coaching is invloved with letting Patrick Roy shut down opposing teams and letting your star lineup work. Pierre Lecroix loads your team and you just sit by and smash it while watching the talent....I sitll dont know how you could be fired. 1 Todd Bertuzzi - The Enigma of the NHL. A skating pile of talent. Incredible hands.....great size....slick skating...great quick shot. Not a FUCKING brain cell in his head. Ive seen smarter Jerry's Kids. This guy is the biggest waste I think ive ever seen. Should be a 60 goal scorer and completely dominant force every year. He disappears for long stretches and kills his team with bad penalties. I dont care how many point he had this year....he is not a winner. Current Mood: Rocking out to the new MobyCurrent Music: NO IM NOT....WHO LIKES THIS? AND THE GUY IS A COMPLETE NERD.. |
| Thursday, April 18th, 2002 |
| 6:13 pm |
Peace
Gone to ALABAMA for the weekend. Be back sunday.......SEE YOU LATER...maybe more tan? |
| Thursday, April 11th, 2002 |
| 2:27 pm |
Cell capabilities
Thats right the king of anti-phone has acquired a phone of the wire-less kind. The phone number being 586-921-7725...and it has the voice-mail....so call me when something is happening other than whine later about me being absent or un-informed. |
| Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002 |
| 1:44 am |
tried
Im freaking tired and I got my ass tattoed in hockey today. A bitterly disappointing 5-1 loss. ( Although I scored the one) Its been a long day....a pretty good day considering the Tigers lost...and I lost. Spent some time with the chicky.....she is strangely addicted to Yahtzee.....she is too funny :) anyways im off to dreamsville....its very pleasant there |
| Wednesday, March 27th, 2002 |
| 4:22 pm |
Changes
So much has happened over the last month or so. Most of them being incredibly good. Lately besides doing assloads of homework and working. I have been spending a lot of time with my favorite girl Becky. Everything is going so well.....its almost kind of scary how much I really love her. We really have a lot of the same thoughts....views...ideas....outlook on life. We have too much fun.....we do to much stuff....she has opened my eyes to a lot of things. I am quite new to this stuff....but I think that something I was missing....was love. I had no clue what it was like to care for someone SO much. To be worried for them all the time....to take care of them when there sick....to be thinking of them all the time....and feel safe and calm and at peace when there around. I really love being with her and I cherish every moment with her Current Mood:  peacefulCurrent Music: Alien Ant Farm - Courage |
| Monday, March 25th, 2002 |
| 8:40 am |
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